I am now feeling our baby boy kick me like crazy. He can be very active some days and it is a wonderful feeling. He has also found a cozy little spot really low in my stomach and I think he uses my bladder as a pillow. It causes me to have a lot of pressure and to use the bathroom constantly. But I just can't explain how much of a wonderful feeling it is to feel him move around inside me. It creates such a bond that I can't explain how much I love him already. I just can't wait to meet him!
I have also been dealing with another issue. I have always wanted to be pregnant and have a child. So to me, this is one of the most exciting times in my life, aside from marrying the man of my dreams! However, I have struggled a little. It is mind boggling at how RUDE people can be. I have heard more negative things than positive (moreso at work). I hear how "fat" or "chubby" I have gotten, been asked how much I ate over the weekend b/c I look "huge", been told I look "really pregnant and big" (in the beginning of the pregnancy) and then now get odd looks and comments on days I have have a tighter shirt on. (even if it is a pregnancy shirt) I have to remind people that I am growing a human being inside of me with all these comments. I know a lot of it is in jest, but really. I get negative comments about the name we have picked and they always voice their true opinions no matter how rude they are. I have even had people say that they are not as excited b/c it is a boy...I mean, are you really that picky. I am having a baby and didn't know that it mattered whether or not it is a boy or girl. Overall, I am struggling enough with gaining weight and having my body change, so all these comments make it even harder. I just feel I need to share this with others as I would have never imagined that I would have to experience this. I think it is sad how others can make such a wonderful experience seem so bad at times. But I am doing my best to not listen to these comments and not let my mood swings kick in and over react.